import 4.code.options; import 4.code.about; class Header{ public void title(){ String fullTitle = "/wg/ - Wallpapers/General"; } public void menu(); public void board(); public void goToBottom(); public void refresh(a); } class Thread extends Board{ public void FeelsThread(OP Anonymous){ String fullTitle = "Feels Thread"; int postNumber = "7129927"; String image = "done-75%.png"; String date = "02/06/18(Tue)11:06:49"; String comment = "Pic is OC. I want to fucking die already."; } public void comments(){ if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7129931 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)11:28:04" && image=="IMG_20170929_191211.jpg") "Bump. I have an edit of this somewhere, couldn't find. Will throw together a new one"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7129937 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)11:45:22" && image=="final.png") ">>7129931 Here we go. 2nd bump."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7129938 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)11:50:07" && image=="8QqK0Me.jpg") ">>7129927 >I want to fucking die already Suicide is always an option, but of course you don't want to commit because you don't actually want to die."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130002 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)13:59:25" && image=="1497683559461.jpg") ">>7129938 Indeed not. Although, I wouldn't mind ceasing to exist."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130067 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)14:55:36" && image=="1499213347979.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130080 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)15:08:19" && image=="1355944069289.jpg") "Pape isn't relevant, but this kind of music always gets me through these times. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ec_pyajYlm0"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130166 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)16:55:17" && image=="122579-21013.jpg") ">>7129927 Find a new she. There are billions of women out there. Don't let one dominate everything you are. Be the man you want to be, and then keep rolling the dice, finding new women, until you find a girl who appreciates that person. You'll never be sustainably happy with someone if you don't love yourself as much as they do."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130191 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)17:16:55" && image=="darkwater.jpg") "https://youtu.be/9RMHHwJ9Eqk?list=RDEc_pyajYlm0"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7130392 && dateTime=="02/06/18(Tue)21:00:57" && image=="1505248096774.png") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131596 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)01:27:31" && image=="27781782_536763386691930_756759537_n.jpg") "feelsbadman"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131897 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)14:11:22" && image=="Wavy.jpg") "Heartbreak hmm? I'm sorry"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131926 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)15:55:45" && image=="1490903300462.jpg") ">>7129927 life isn't worth fretting over that stuff either 1. you're being too clingy and emotionally driven instead of logical 2. she's not worth it 3. there's just a simple miscommunication that is causing a rift between you and you need to just let her live her life"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131936 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)16:23:54" && image=="IMG_6173.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131953 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)16:48:07") ">>7130166 >>7131897 >>7131926 I think I love her. We're really great friends. She loves another. I try to pretend I don't love her. I try not to be selfish. Try to do what makes her happy: let them love. I'm trying to convince myself that I don't love her. At this point, pretty much all I'm afraid of is losing her as a friend. Probably the best one I've ever had."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131969 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)17:07:06" && image=="Kaori-And-Kousei-Wallpaper-HD-24522.jpg") "Could be worse, anon. >pic related"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131986 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)17:30:59" && image=="obqPaNu.png") "Having an SO is nice and stuff, but true happiness is within. Don't pin your emotional state onto another person, but don't withdraw into yourself either. Be balanced."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131996 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)17:47:12") ">>7129927 >>7131926 If God wills it then it will happen. Have faith in the Lord, and you will be rewarded."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7131997 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)17:47:47" && image=="BR2049.jpg") ">>7131953 >I'm afraid of is losing her as a friend Two years ago I was in the same situation, in the end I told her how I felt, and I mean poured my heart out. She replied "Now just isn't the right time for me to love you" and the friendship fell apart. This was the best result for both of us"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7132039 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)19:28:11" && image=="image.jpg") ">>7129927 Love the OC anon got any more of it?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7132045 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)19:44:58") ">>7131997 I wouldn't stand being in the same class as her for two more years if I lose her as a friend. I'm going to make sure it doesn't happen. I thought I was good at handling these scenarios, but I honestly can't imagine losing her as a friend. I wouldn't be able to handle it. She's the best friend I've ever had. >>7132039 Thx anon <3 No more right now, I'm new to making it. Could make some more later."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7132050 && dateTime=="02/08/18(Thu)20:00:16" && image=="nohope.jpg") ">>7132039 >>7132045 Alright, here's something I threw together. It's 2 am here however. Until next time."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7133348 && dateTime=="02/10/18(Sat)02:19:14" && image=="1489290963355.jpg") ">>7132045 Change begets change. Nothing propagates so fast. If a man habituated to a narrow circle of cares and pleasures, out of which he seldom travels, step beyond it, though for never so brief a space, his departure from the monotonous scene on which he has been an actor of importance would seem to be the signal for instant confusion...The mine which Time has slowly dug beneath familiar objects is sprung in an instant; and what was rock before, becomes but sand and dust. -Charles Dickens"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7133369 && dateTime=="02/10/18(Sat)03:41:54") "Anyone also felt awed by large human built structure ?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7133370 && dateTime=="02/10/18(Sat)03:42:28" && image=="1516926055705.jpg") ">>7133369 sorry forgot image"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7134801 && dateTime=="02/11/18(Sun)16:39:32") ">>7129927 this is pretty damn good looking actually"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7134817 && dateTime=="02/11/18(Sun)17:00:59") ">>7129938 excellent philosophy, anon"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7134952 && dateTime=="02/11/18(Sun)19:26:33") ">>7129927 Probably wrong, but this looks like it was taken at Jedney or around Mile 130 on the Alaska Hwy. There's a long dip going around a curve with a yellow suggestion sign and a blue information sign that are pretty much in the same spot. Only reason I point out the similarity is because I attended a commercial motor vehicle accident (former traffic pig) in that area."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136127 && dateTime=="02/13/18(Tue)07:04:35") ">>7133370 Got any more like these?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136136 && dateTime=="02/13/18(Tue)08:35:14") ">>7129938 almost everyone, if not all of all have contemplated suicide before. Evryone thinks about it, but "no one actually" does it. It is predestined that you won't kill yourself. To go against what is predestined, you must kill yourself. I;m not saying is the right way, but this is the only way to fight your destiny and be free."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136169 && dateTime=="02/13/18(Tue)11:00:47") ">>7134801 Thank you. >>7134952 This was in Sweden, but I like your comparison."; if(Augustoteles && title=="" && postNumber==7136225 && dateTime=="02/13/18(Tue)12:45:55") ">>7131596 How is it called this style? Also more like this pls"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136716 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)02:32:54") ">>7131969 I picked the wrong time in my life to watch that show."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136817 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)06:44:50" && image=="1496255569357.jpg") "Sorry to hear. It's kind of fucked up isn't it. I think about it all the time anon, it's slowly tearing me apart and I'm not sure how to stop it. Hope you make it through."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7136827 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)07:17:58" && image=="1488862741831.jpg") "Glad this thread was here at just this point in time, I feel a little less alone now. I guess I can't exactly understand any of you Anon's situations exactly, and it would be very difficult for me to convey mine. I don't get out much, I met her online a year ago. At some point she became my best friend, and at some point she confessed she was in love with me. She's half way across the world, a devout Catholic, and far too old for me. I care so much for her and want to do anything I can for her, but the more I try to think the more it seems that I'm completely powerless. I'm not sure what I'm feeling or how to describe it, but I guess I feel lost. It's painful to care about things that can't be changed. At some point in the future I know I'm going to have to tear myself away and move on, somehow. I sympathize with any of you out there hurting, I wouldn't even mind talking about it more. People on /wg/ are here for y'all, including myself, because time and time again when the feels come out here I can feel like I'm not navigating the fog alone anymore. I wish the best for all of you, whatever that may be. I'll share one of mine."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137004 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)13:40:52") ">>7136827 >a devout Catholic, and far too old for me why were you cybering with a nun"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137034 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)14:35:35") ">>7133369 Me, keep going."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137056 && dateTime=="02/14/18(Wed)14:51:18" && image=="1506547743304.jpg") ">>7130191 Best, ever."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137507 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)02:50:52") ">>7137004 I just wanted to have some nun fun, Anon."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137509 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)03:09:55") ">>7131953 dont fucking torture yourself man, you dont want to be her friend, you think thats the solution because it keeps contact and keeps you close but its not, ive been there. you go all in or you move on, anything else is just staring through windows."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137627 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)09:43:34") ">>7136136 Killing yourself would just happen to be your destiny. You can't be "free", Anon. Your life is and has always been moving towards your death. However that comes about, it was always "meant" for you in exactly that way. No way around your path, Anon"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137923 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)18:43:17" && image=="E76932E6-94C8-4813-8EDA-B9F71E49148A.jpg") ">>7131953 My fiancé died a little over a year ago from a brain tumor, i feel for you. Its hell and you basically get up just to kick the day in the teeth. My advice, get a dog."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7137937 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)19:11:16" && image=="1493992648140.jpg") ">>7136127 Not him but search for 'Simon Stålenhag' he does a lot very similar to that pic (it might be one of his actually)."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138059 && dateTime=="02/15/18(Thu)20:59:22" && image=="adf.png") "Yo anons, >>7136827 >>7131953 >>7137923 What I can say is, hope things get better for you all. Watching the moon and stars always made me feel better."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138440 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)11:45:17" && image=="thelan_1920.jpg") ">>7137937 OP here. Simon Stålenhag is my favorite artist."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138632 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)16:13:19" && image=="1459318600853.jpg") "i got thrown in a psych ward last a week ago because i was about to kill myself i'm scared of opening up again because i don't want to go back the smell of the place made me sick. i don't feel depressed, but i always feel like shit when i'm not at work. at work i can focus on other things. what do i do?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138642 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)16:40:37") ">>7136827 Make something happen If the feelings are real just do it. You gotta find out. Visit her for a week or two, see if it works. If not, at least you gave it a try, and you can move on with your life without regrets. Fuck what people think, you do you, friend"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138648 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)16:56:54") ">>7131953 I have the exactly same problem right now. I try to convince myself that we're just good friends but everytime we talk i can't suppress those feelings. I try not to think about her too much but that causes us to talk even less than we already do"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138663 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)17:26:29") ">>7131969 Yeah, I could be a piano"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7138705 && dateTime=="02/16/18(Fri)18:02:07") ">>7129938 >>7130002 Hoson zeis phainou melepolos sylipouhou Pros oligos ten i ozen To telos so chronos apaitheii"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7139494 && dateTime=="02/17/18(Sat)16:16:37") ">>7131996 Christ fucked Mary and you worship a goatfucker religion. Drink bleach Christfag."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140020 && dateTime=="02/17/18(Sat)23:12:02" && image=="1481396337936.jpg") ">got closer to a girl >things going great >day after valentines she decided to go out with someone else >says nothing to me"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140032 && dateTime=="02/17/18(Sat)23:21:48") ">>7136817 8/8"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140046 && dateTime=="02/17/18(Sat)23:53:49" && image=="railroad_underground_man_line_light_119354_5616x3744.jpg") "I've never had any female friends to connect with because I'm ugly as shit and have no social skills. The only exceptions were the super friendly girls from school who were nice to the losers. For some reason, city/urban landscapes give me a strange feeling of melancholy."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140128 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:23:33" && image=="random-201.jpg") ">>7129927 fuckin same dude"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140129 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:29:18" && image=="random-48.jpg") ">>7140128 2/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140130 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:29:57" && image=="random-1.jpg") ">>7140129 3/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140131 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:30:50" && image=="random-29.jpg") ">>7140130 4/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140132 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:31:37" && image=="random-33.jpg") ">>7140131 5/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140133 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:32:29" && image=="random-52.jpg") "6/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140134 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:33:03" && image=="random-54.jpg") "7/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140135 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:33:40" && image=="random-64.jpg") "8/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140136 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:34:26" && image=="random-82.png") "9/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140137 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:36:10" && image=="random-319.jpg") "10/?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140138 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)02:36:52" && image=="random-338.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140158 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)03:00:10") ">>7140137 what a piece of shit. that sign doesnt say hitachi"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140177 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)03:51:45") ">>7130002 Who is the artist? I used to know it a while back, sadly i forgot."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7140930 && dateTime=="02/18/18(Sun)20:16:39") ">>7129927 what font did you use and how did you take the picture? I really appreciate these kind of threads"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7141597 && dateTime=="02/19/18(Mon)11:03:32") ">>7140930 Font is VCR OSD Mono with some gaussian blur applied (not entirely sure about the blur effect). I took the picture on the way home. Winter nights are cold and dark here."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7141636 && dateTime=="02/19/18(Mon)11:47:12") ">>7140134 yo is this 856 G?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7142210 && dateTime=="02/19/18(Mon)21:46:21" && image=="1514853677150.jpg") ">have lifelong self worth and intimacy issues >best friend screws crush >feel like I'm unworthy of a good relationship >treat everyone coldy and brusquely >khv I just want to be left alone."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7142543 && dateTime=="02/20/18(Tue)06:09:36" && image=="a promise is a promise.jpg") ">>7130191 the one that got away went to the only place I couldn't follow."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7142570 && dateTime=="02/20/18(Tue)08:11:28" && image=="1517792856491.jpg") ">>7131953 Same thing here OP, i feel for you When i get the chance i will also pour out my heart like that other anon, i think you should do too"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7142600 && dateTime=="02/20/18(Tue)09:08:15") "she tortured me for months and took all my money and she was with someone else the whole time she was ignoring me"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7142687 && dateTime=="02/20/18(Tue)12:36:08") ">>7140177 Zdzisław Beksiński Never been into visual art that much, but love his paintings"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144153 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)05:09:32" && image=="1499526577092.jpg") "feel like i'm slowly losing my mind"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144154 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)05:16:26" && image=="1506727769812.jpg") ">>7144153 feels threads are always about being heartbroken but I've never even been in love with anyone. i'm incredibly lonely but i don't think i'm even capable of that level of connection anymore https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXUNqLLkpYE"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144275 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)08:10:29" && image=="1509117537013.png") "This too shall pass anon. Do what makes you happy. You came here probably 15-20 years ago, and you only have about 60 years left if you're lucky you only get to exist for that long. What are you spending it on?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144316 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)11:01:37") ">>7129927 Fuck you. First one already broke me"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144336 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)12:09:31") ">>7129938 fuck off man"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144341 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)12:23:09") ">>7137923 man that sucks know that you are very strong for going through all that"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144350 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)12:40:24" && image=="Godspeed.jpg") ">>7144275 God speed"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144393 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)14:13:49" && image=="1507005344722.jpg") "it will be okay anons, hang in there."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144396 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)14:15:09" && image=="9998.jpg") ">>7144350 Gods peed"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144412 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)14:32:37" && image=="1504326865579.jpg") ">>7130002 I can relate to this shit desu"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144526 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)16:21:35") ">>7129931 Love this. Dash lights and street lights are the best."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144820 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)23:09:01") ">>7144396 where is this?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144843 && dateTime=="02/22/18(Thu)23:50:41") ">>7138632 keep going"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144877 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)00:11:04" && image=="suicidecenter.png") ">>7129927 I want to die"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144895 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)00:19:15") ">>7144820 belgrade serbia"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144906 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)00:45:42") ">>7131986 good shit my guy"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7144908 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)00:52:53") ">>7138632 Move. Get away from what destroys you and grow."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7145533 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)22:17:53" && image=="1488256673834.jpg") ">>7138632 we believe in you, anon, and you're strong enough to keep going. maybe try finding a hobby to keep your mind occupied once you get home from work? i don't know what your interests are, but learning a programming language could be good, as your mind can't really wander if you're properly taking in the information, and it's also somewhat of a creative outlet."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7145541 && dateTime=="02/23/18(Fri)22:32:31") ">>7133370 do this things also carry a 110V line just for the redlights purpose or do the take the energy from the high voltage transmission lines?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146182 && dateTime=="02/24/18(Sat)19:12:31" && image=="image_15.jpg") ">>7129927 Depression isn't what you think it is. Order "Satan, demons, get behind me and get out of this house in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ." Take possession of yourself. Do not be tormented by that which cannot be seen."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146205 && dateTime=="02/24/18(Sat)19:52:19") ">>7146182 Thanks man, that'll clear that chemical imbalance in my brain right up."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146338 && dateTime=="02/25/18(Sun)00:36:49") ">>7131953 Similar situation as you. We flirted on and off for years. She was married. One day I told her "if I can't have all of you, I don't want any of you." We didn't speak for 2 years. Then I get a call out of the blue, late at night, and she's crying into my voicemail - "I need you. I'm getting a divorce.""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146383 && dateTime=="02/25/18(Sun)01:27:00") ">>7146280 That's not very christian of you, anon"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146437 && dateTime=="02/25/18(Sun)04:20:14") ">>7146280 Death cultist."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146627 && dateTime=="02/25/18(Sun)11:39:23" && image=="fuckit.png") "bump Posting OC"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7146772 && dateTime=="02/25/18(Sun)14:46:02") ">>7138632 You can always try to find a person you can ust rant on and on about this stuff. I always try to be that kind of person for my friends"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7147162 && dateTime=="02/26/18(Mon)01:09:44" && image=="1382605728732.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7147222 && dateTime=="02/26/18(Mon)02:20:34") ">>7132050 idk if you are still in this thread or not, but I really like your OC and I hope I'll get to see more of it in the future."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7147932 && dateTime=="02/26/18(Mon)20:20:21") ">>7147222 I'm still here. Thank you, it means a lot. I hope to make more soon."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7148643 && dateTime=="02/27/18(Tue)16:27:08") ">>7131953 i knew i loved her, she was my best friend, she has loved many since we last spoke, i tried to pretend to not love her, to keep her from finding out but i failed miserably, i was selfish and i still hate myself for it, and still i couldn't stop them, and I felt even more pathetic then I ever felt. I forced myself to let her go, and I did nothing but hurt myself even more, I lost her form absolutely every single point of view. All i have is memories that i am scared to relive because i know that they will do nothing but hurt me even more. She didn't even look at me when she left. God knows I can't help you, anon, but I am here with you"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7148925 && dateTime=="02/28/18(Wed)01:28:40") ">>7129927 If y'all wanted to kill yourselves you'd fucking do it rather than posting le sad, feckless images on the internet."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149368 && dateTime=="02/28/18(Wed)15:06:30" && image=="1518596820799.jpg") "Im with you Anons. Robot /k/ommando here"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149592 && dateTime=="02/28/18(Wed)19:01:02" && image=="1402772029093.jpg") ">>7147932 I like your OC too my dude. Keep your strength up. I'm with you, at least. All I can really offer you is a quote and a pape that keeps me going, trudging through the heartbreak, the sorrow, and the pain. "Sometimes even to live is an act of courage." - Seneca"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149817 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)00:06:04") ">>7140020 what a cunt"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149953 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)05:40:56" && image=="1510996223483.jpg") "I need to get this off my chest before I explode: >Senior year >18 almost getting 19 >In a godawful high school >One of the worst in the Louisiana >Missed an entire month of school because I fell into a severe pit of depression after the flu >Had suicide on my mind for the entire month >Man the fuck up and went to school after a teacher emailed me and asked what was going on; not the staff or even my friends >Come back thinking I wouldn't understand any subjects >None of the subjects changed >School is still painfully easy because they just want us to pass, not for us to learn. >Still failing a ton of classes because of lack of motivation/bullshit subjects from my elective classes that I am not required to pass >School friends have been telling me I will not graduate every time they've seen me since I've come back 2 weeks ago >They're are total cunts. I only stick around so I won't be fingered as a "white-boy school shooter" >Can't even disagree with them because despite my school being fucking garbage, I still have to pay a senior fee of $200 or I just flat-out fail regardless of my ACT, ASVAB, or EOC scores >This is for a rundown high school btw, not a college where I would understand why people are getting fees up the ass >I have to sleep for dinner most of the time so I know I can't pay that shit off >My dad cuts grass for a living so the spring rains, which have come earlier here than most other states, have caused him to be put off work >I was already doing pretty bad before, but now I have to actually go to school to eat >And when I do actually go to school and try to fake a smile, I get kids in my class that want to lecture me about how white people are privileged because of politics >I must have had my white privilege check mailed at the wrong address because I am a goddamn wreck on the verge of jumping off a bridge. Shit. Still don't know if I want to off myself or just give my service away to the Air Force and never return to this god awful state again."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149958 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)05:56:47") ">>7149953 Air Force, but let it be clear: it won't fix anything. It won't fix the depression, but it will give you time to live your life to find a solution rather then die homeless. Just put on a good face, and pass the psych eval."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149969 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)06:12:18" && image=="1500263669261.png") ">>7131953 Anon, don't fucking put yourself through this shit. This happened to me, but I fucked it up with her, and lost a friend and it fucked with me for about 2 years. Find a hobby or new people to hang with to forget about it. It's not healthy man. It'll happen one day, trust me. Don't lose hope. I know how it feels, like you're fucking hollow inside and you just don't want to exist. Life throws wrenches at you when you're fully recovered after a serious event, and it's no different w/ my life. Keep your head up, and live life."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149995 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)06:58:39") ">>7146205 kind of funny how words affect the brain. like if I mentioned something emotionally charged like, it clearly illicits a response words are magic meaning is magic commit yourself"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7149996 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)07:00:33" && image=="1503649421638.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7150483 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)20:01:34") ">>7133369 >>7133370 Yessssss"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7150491 && dateTime=="03/01/18(Thu)20:14:54" && image=="blacklies.jpg") ">>7132039 >>7134801 >>7140930 >>7144526 >>7147222 >>7149592 OP here, back with some OC. Hope you like it. >>7149969 I'm trying to emotionally distance myself from her. She must not ever know about my feelings for her. It would destroy me."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7150726 && dateTime=="03/02/18(Fri)01:35:32") ">>7142543 gay as hell, hombre"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7150769 && dateTime=="03/02/18(Fri)03:00:23" && image=="lockandbg.png") ">>7149995 >>7146182 >Take possession of yourself. Do not be tormented by that which cannot be seen. This is a meaningless platitude, you're basically just telling someone to get over it. If things were that simple I highly doubt depression or any other type of mental illness would exist on the scale we see them. >words are magic Not everything you don't understand is magic, and just because there isn't a way to predict how words impact someone doesn't mean it's inexplicable. More importantly spouting unhelpful, vaguely religious advice and receiving a response isn't magic, and you're not some kind of behavioral genius for realizing people respond to different things differently. Honestly no ill will, I just don't think you're being as profound as you think you are."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7150833 && dateTime=="03/02/18(Fri)05:14:23" && image=="iiitiriiieidiiililiiieidiiidiiieidi.png") "Todo es cálido al lado tuyo, me siento bien cuando estoy contigo, todo lo bueno que me ha pasado ha sido gracias a ti. Que pena que ya no estés conmigo, hace mucho frío, cada vez me siento peor, no me a parado de pasar pura mierda desde que te fuiste, desde que me dejaste tirado bajo la lluvia. No sabía que hacer, no sabía donde ir, pensaba que no aguantaría más y decidiría ir por lo fácil y acabar con mi sufrimiento. Pero no lo hice, aún no es el momento, pero quizá pronto lo sea. Aunque haya sido patético todo ese tiempo, que para ti probablemente no significó nada, tan solo no quiero ser olvidado cuando cometa la última estupidez y acabe con esto."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151484 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)03:00:54") ">>7129938 different anon here not to get all >>>/adv/ on you guys but would you guys rather be homeless probably for most of your life or kill yourself cause that's what I'm looking at here."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151486 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)03:02:59") "Don't ever live for anyone other than yourself."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151490 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)03:18:58") ">>7151484 I'll listen, Why are you going to be probably homeless?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151512 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)04:28:32" && image=="1494445640868.jpg") ">>7129938 >he thinks he's fucking clever for this"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151615 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)07:57:54") ">>7129927 >>7129937 what font?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151772 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)13:51:33") ">>7151512 Not him but, failing to recognize suicide as a viable option for dispensing with depression will inevitably lead others to try. And if you wanted to kill yourself, you would. I've been there twice and fully committed once. I'm only here today because my brother thought I was worth it and I am very thankful for him saving me. The best way out of depression is to talk about it and that means shutting up and listening to why, when someone says they want to end their lives. Never Dismissing the options to get out of depression and to pick the best one that suits your current situation."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7151945 && dateTime=="03/03/18(Sat)17:21:06") ">>7151615 VCR OSD Mono."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7152717 && dateTime=="03/04/18(Sun)16:04:34") ">>7150769 Not to jump in this thread, but the other Anon is kinda right. I'm not religious, and I don't think that "words are magic" but I don't think Anon meant that literally either. As we come to understand our brains more we've definitely learned significant amounts about how extraordinarily simple things like word choice can have profound impacts on us, and yes, even change how our brain operates. Example, training your brain to respond differently to "triggering" stimuli. Or as I was just learning about, conditioning a person to persevere vs quit when faced with hard situations. Studies have shown that just by rewarding a child with words like "you're so smart" vs "you worked really hard" can have significant effects on work ethic and cause the former to believe talent is inherent and unchanging, whereas the latter will believe that you must work at tough problems. So in that same vein something as simple as believing in a higher power or feeling there is some sort of supporting figure out there for you could certainly have a positive effect. The debate here would be if that is the path you'd like to take to achieve the goal of feeling better/differently, not necessarily if it works."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7153154 && dateTime=="03/05/18(Mon)08:31:19") ">>7149953 Lad I'll see you at the Air Force boot if you join this summer. Hope you stay with your head up, the present will be the past soon and then you can be your own man"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7154038 && dateTime=="03/06/18(Tue)09:19:02" && image=="1517790451934.jpg") ">>7140020 I've been there last year as well"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7154039 && dateTime=="03/06/18(Tue)09:25:17" && image=="1451770103908.jpg") "Thread theme https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4hQG-XTVa4"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7154414 && dateTime=="03/06/18(Tue)18:02:48" && image=="1437940231484.jpg") "Great thread. Welcome to heartbreak city. What doesn't kill you (or make you kill yourself) makes you stronger."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7155742 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)03:11:00" && image=="1515370648525.jpg") "I just found out my ex has a new bf. It's been a year since I ended things, and I thought I would move on and get stronger. New town, new school, new everything. Yet through it all I've never felt so damn alone. I ended things because I can't do long distance, I saw what its done to my parents and I don't want it. I just want to feel like someone chose to give a damn. Someone cares because they choose to and not just because I was what they made. It hurts man..."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7155759 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)03:21:31" && image=="1481567425440.jpg") ">>7130080 My man"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7155764 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)03:34:16" && image=="Rain.gif") ">>7131953 Good luck anon. Always have felt wavery in the idea of god but I pray you get exactly what you deserve, and if you deserve her then hey man lucky for you."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7155767 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)03:41:16") ">>7129927 To everyone here, don't keep it all inside. I always keep it in my head or brain but I know I shouldn't. Doesn't fix anything just makes it hurt more. Don't torture yourself anymore. What you feel bubbles up in your gut and heart and I know for a fact I'm not gonna let it bubble any longer. I'm gonna chase something and I don't know what I want in life but I'm going to chase for something better then right fucking here. Cause fuck right here you know? Fuck this pain I'm getting out and heres my word to the wise, find your way out too. Find a way out of pain because if your stuck here for much longer your not gonna make it, I know I'm not. Im gonna make something, just do something. There are happy people in this world and I'm gonna follow them see how they got it. Yall do the same. With wholeheartedness, good luck."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156327 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)19:53:21" && image=="1451963019521.jpg") ">>7146205 make your choice"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156335 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)20:10:59") ">>7131996 Not the same anon but wanted to add some people are made as a trial for others. All sufferings will be recompensed if you have patience. If God wills that she never returns, then it is only for your benefit and never as a punishment."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156346 && dateTime=="03/08/18(Thu)20:40:16" && image=="link_02_976x0.jpg") ">>7129927 come to me and I'll Dr Kevorkian your ass"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156445 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)01:08:06") ">>7146627 nice one anon, I love the feeling."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156447 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)01:10:29") ">>7140137 I love the cyber punk feeling in this one."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156879 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)11:05:55" && image=="vast oceans_ Gou Tanabe.png") ">>7142210 >I just want to be left alone. me too anon, me too"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156994 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)13:58:48") ">>7151484 Homeless. Not the bum type of homeless, more like the drifter. See new places, meet new people, hop a fucking train and just ride. Maybe you could even start anew, who knows. Even if you still want to kill yourself afterwards at least you can say you tried."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7156998 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)14:14:06") ">>7137937 >>7138440 I'd seen a lot of Stalenhag's stuff posted here, but never knew his name! Thanks!"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157002 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)14:21:06" && image=="1387806459821.jpg") ">>7144154"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157011 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)14:36:25") ">>7140020 >Got close to a girl last summer >Shit was great >Texts me like "I can't wait to hang out with you again" >Kiss and cuddle etc. >Silence for two days >She's picked up contact with her drug addicted ex-BF >fuckthis.exe >3 months go by >She texts me, more or less says she misses me and what we had during the summer was more than what she wanted to admit to herself >Hang out again, go even further than kissing and cuddling >Make plans for NYE >1 week passes >Meet up day before christmas eve >"I don't think I can be in a relationship with you right now" >Goes out with guy within the next few days feelsbadman.jpeg"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157232 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)20:20:13" && image=="1516432374631.jpg") "stop pitying yourselves you faggots"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157245 && dateTime=="03/09/18(Fri)21:15:56" && image=="FB_IMG_1520610244276.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157507 && dateTime=="03/10/18(Sat)03:21:05") "Lost a lot of really close friends + my soul-mate in these last 4 years. I'm 19, and half of my friends are dead, and my parents are in awful shape as well. These songs are ones that keep me goin', absolutely the saddest songs ever, hope you enjoy them. Feel better homies xo, enjoy ur weekend. (Saddest Song) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcDuR9BF0Oc (2nd Saddest) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xm3qnh1sck (Not as sad, but very detailed songs about drug usage by ur friends) 1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25mDqXfEqa4 2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMxCi3ljWEg (Acoustic Song) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6E9WMM0vko - very relaxing."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157533 && dateTime=="03/10/18(Sat)04:31:53" && image=="1474761925067.jpg") ">>7129927 I've always liked this one Complimentary melancholic song (thats not a shitty waste of a click) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bbda9KK8G0U >>7157507 >Velvet Underground nice Have you given Nico's Chelsea Girl a try?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157619 && dateTime=="03/10/18(Sat)07:01:25") "anyone want good feels or do yall wanna be depressing?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7157986 && dateTime=="03/10/18(Sat)13:03:26") ">>7157232 /r/ing an edit of your pic with the text of your post"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158260 && dateTime=="03/10/18(Sat)19:03:26") ">>7129927 If you commit suicide... ...she'll text you 3 hours after you are dead... ...and You'll never know! That's called "Murphys Law"."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158551 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)04:34:01") ">>7158260 Screencap this shit because this is exactly what would happen for any of us and you all fuckin' know it."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158564 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)05:33:37" && image=="1487590199370.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158612 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)08:02:12" && image=="1520163133179m.jpg") "Few months ago I got to spend some hours with my crush. We got drunk, she told me she loved me. And then, I guess, she forgot."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158747 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)10:52:31") ">>7144412 my gf broke up with me last week, during a blizzard. Whenever I see snow I get feels again"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158774 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)11:22:09" && image=="tigre1.png") "1/2"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7158776 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)11:23:01" && image=="tigre2.png") ">>7158774 2/2, next frame"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159199 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)16:42:09") ">>7131953 Been there, never told her. Got into a fight over her bf being too controlling and thinking we shouldn't hang out and her just accepting it. Also about how she was just a completely different person with him. In a bad way. I felt bad for him sort of. She was so closed off to him. Stopping talking after but i guess he was right. I did love her. She was everything to me but i couldn't admit it to myself. My advice. Tell her or end it. Its gonna kill you eventually trust me. You can't wait it out. There's just gonna be another guy if they brake up and that's going to destroy you. Do it now and ask if there was ever a chance, if she ever felt anything. If not then better not waste anymore of your time with her."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159218 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)16:51:35" && image=="simulation_ended_have_a_nice_day.png") ">>7129927 Same here OP But I know i won't fucking do it. Too much of a pussy. Any advice on how to actually pull it off without hesitating? drugs? blindfold? When I do it I know I'll back out at the last second, I've tried before. Anybody got any suggestions?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159302 && dateTime=="03/11/18(Sun)19:14:16" && image=="jesus.png") "I just had one of the best days of my life and worst days of my life within the same weekend. I used to have a really big crush on this girl who's ghosted me on multiple occasions and even stood me up once, but whenever she would do something bad to me she would always reel me back in and we would start talking again. Around a month ago a finally realized she'll never like me back, so I started getting over her. At the same time I started hanging out with her best friend and we really hit it off. I started crushing on her and she eventually told me she liked me back out of nowhere. We went to her house this past Friday and watched movies. She held my hand and was my first kiss. I was so ecstatic that I told all my friends that we were dating. Turns out her best friend (my old crush) was angry at her for us hanging out so much. She called me this morning and said we should just stay friends."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159579 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)05:00:52") ">>7159218 Man I'm not going to give you an advice how to effectively kill yourself. How about you don't do it, eh?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159612 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)06:16:33" && image=="1517441822853.jpg") ">>7155767 We hear ya anon, keep on keeping on"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159621 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)07:01:54") ">>7159218 8ch has a /suicide/ tips and tricks board ;)"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159674 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)10:02:38") ">>7159579 Thanks for the concern but I've decided a long time ago that I'm going to die by my own hand. Things just haven't gotten that bad for me to actually do it yet I guess. But I know they will. Asking because I don't want to fuck it up and be a drooling half dead vegetable. Who knows maybe it will actually get better and I won't even try but im not counting on it. >>7159621 Thx m8 I'll check it out."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159884 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)14:51:28") ">>7146338 How did this story end?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159891 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)15:01:49") ">>7157011 oh shit must have clicked /r9k/ accidentially"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159894 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)15:10:07" && image=="00252.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159900 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)15:25:09" && image=="1505668994929.jpg") ">since early teens dream of true love, the stuff you find in books etc >always too shy to do anything, too scared of girls >in late teens try to befriend 4 different girls in consecutive attempts, but was too hesitant to make the first move, so they lost whatever interest they had >kissless virgin up until early twenties >get first gf >I'm more or less of a Christian lifestyle, even though I'm agnostic (don't smoke/drink/party) >I was always serious about relationships, always consider marriage as a consequence, no flings >girl turns out to be dependent on drugs/alcohol >verbally abuses me, is always cursing/whining >I suspect she has BPD >put up with it for years >always have her back, put 100% into relationship, drag her from parties when she's unable to walk straight >feel empty, drained, no energy, fallen behind on studies >don't see myself marrying her, totally different life values >she basically hates all humanity, constantly wishes bad things for people >break up, she threatens suicide >continues to vent all her problems to me >can't just block her because I'll feel bad for her >most friends in relationships, some of them are what I'd call ideal pair: understand each other without words, totally compatible worldviews >can't even imagine myself finding someone like that >now am just trying to improve myself for the sake of my parents. trying to avoid trouble so that they wouldn't worry, working on becoming content with being on my own and not needing outside validation. shit's been rough, but i've emerged a better, albeit battered, person but i still cannot even fathom how people are able to meet someone so compatible with themselves. really boggles me."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7159938 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)16:27:15") ">>7158776 where is this from, anon? gives me Bartender vibes, and I've enjoyed that anime."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160151 && dateTime=="03/12/18(Mon)23:20:14") ">>7149953 best of luck anon, many of us have read and we all feel for you. although our feels don't mean much, the best we can offer you is advice to keep your head up. life sure is shit but it's up to you to make the best of it no matter how hard it may be."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160200 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)00:56:46") ">>7138632 definitely find a good hobby. something that you really love. doesn't matter if you're shit at it as long as it's something you enjoy and can be engaged with"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160205 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)01:03:14" && image=="qotsa crows.png") ">>7131953 I've poured out too many times and it's always blown up in my face. I've also isolated myself too many times and lost multiple opportunies with people who were interested in me. Rarely when there is something, I end up shutting down and ruining it anyways. I just keep fucking up and I question if I'm doing it on purpose at this point."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160208 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)01:08:21") ">>7149953 someone in your life has probably already told you this but i think that in order for you to not feel sad all the time (not even necessarily in order to feel happy) you need to find something, one thing, that you really love. that way you have a reason to get up in the morning. it certainly won't be easy to do so once you do find it, but it might make life less shitty at least. find some good friends too. people who really care about your well being. but i think most of know that that in itself is a feat. you can do it though. don't give up man"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160230 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)01:50:34") ">>7144877 why?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160262 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)03:40:29" && image=="1443192991999.jpg") ">>7157011 Pretty similar here man. Don't know if she's with other people right now. She's not with me though and she is more than happy to not talk with me. Learning to cope with the idea of being alone again."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160263 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)03:42:32") ">>7160230 Why not?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160726 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)16:37:08") ">>7139494 Holy Edge Batman"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160760 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)17:37:28" && image=="IMG_8886.jpg") "Here's something to consider. I used to frequent these threads, in the same position as everyone else. I had been stood up by the girl I was certain I was in love with. I was going to a school that I hated, taking classes that I hated. I was out of shape, eating bullshit, being lazy, and not taking care of myself because I didn't want to take part in a life that I thought was unfair. I eventually decided I had to get some shit going. I had to take some responsibility for myself. At that point, I figured the thing that would make the best difference would be to get out of that school, so I aimed single mindedly at that. I worked hard enough to get a scholarship to my dream school, and moved 500 miles away to attend. This was last summer. In the fall, after things stabilized with the new school, I figured the next step would be to take control of my health, which would first mean I had to take control of my schedule and time management to allow for a gym membership. Now I'm going to the gym, I have an app to track what I eat, drinking a liter of water every day, and using technology (free apps, mind you) to manage my time effectively. It all starts with discipline. This isn't some "look how successful I am" story. I'm still overweight. But it's a work in progress, and that's what matters. I stopped relying on other sources to make things work for me. I stopped relying on girls who didn't like me to try and validate my self esteem. I stopped relying on flaky people to fix my inability to be alone with myself. It starts with you doing what's right for yourself, and being not only a competent and functional person, but a GOOD person when nobody is around. (1/2)"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160772 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)17:55:53" && image=="atlas-1a.jpg") ">>7160760 Look at this statue of Atlas. Now I know Atlas was cursed to hold up the sky, and he tried to talk his way out of it before, but abandon that understanding of it for this point. View yourself as the statue, and the globe as all the external forces. Loneliness, stress, etc, all of these things pile up and feel like a huge weight on our shoulders. Make it your duty to support it without collapsing. Life may bend you, but don't let it break you. Take responsibility for yourself and realize what we're all capable of. Alexander the Great and his cart driver found the same fate in the end. It's up to you to decide which one you are. Constantly look inward, embrace responsibility as a means of evaluating yourself. When I'm faced with stress, I embrace the challenge and view it as a chance to test my limits. If you emerge from it with success, you move forward. If you fail, do so knowing that you gave it your best, and find out where you need to grow. Lastly, surround yourself with good people. If your friends support your misery, find new friends. Being around strong people will strengthen you. Read some good books. Meditations by Marcus Aurelius and 12 Rules for Life by Jordan Peterson for philosophy, something by Carl Jung or Alan Watts to find something out about yourself. TL;DR, take responsibility for your own development, stop relying on people for things you can create yourself, and surround yourself with amazing people. And there is nothing wrong with being a work in progress, as long as there's progress. Don't make excuses. Good luck."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160894 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)20:40:05" && image=="Lonely Bicycle.jpg") "I'm unmotivated because i'm going to die anyway and whenever I tell myself I can still try i'm afraid because I don't want to put in the effort just to fail. The only reason I can make it through the day is because I tell myself that I might find a good reason to live tomorrow but I don't think that will ever happen. I don't have anyone that cares about me or that I care about. I don't even know if I want that. I just want to go to sleep."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160969 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)22:02:06") ">>7160894 Find meaning in small things first. Be humble, failure is very common, maybe you're just brainwashed from your parents or media that only show you stories of success. It's the struggle that counts, not Atlas but Sisyphus. Don't be too hard on yourself. Don't expect to wake up and find the meaning of life. We are all going to die but life is about the journey, not the destination :)"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160982 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)22:20:29" && image=="P8Dx7bt.jpg") ">>7131953 Be selfish. Living for others is a sin."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7160999 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)22:44:57" && image=="1498206856651.jpg") ">>7149953 your life sounds like shit. I'd say school is just temporary, but man fuck that shit if its killing you inside. So why not just leave? And the military is a goddamn joke too, more than high school at times. If you're looking for somewhere to go that's different, google wwoofing. Work on a farm in the middle of nowhere, get three meals a day and a bed to sleep in. If its far away take a bus or fucking hitchhike. You can always go back to get your GED later. If you're gonna take a leap, might as well do it towards something that could end up as a good story to tell, rather than a bridge."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7161014 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)23:18:56" && image=="villains2.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7161039 && dateTime=="03/13/18(Tue)23:37:32") ">>7138632 That's depression my man, but it's nothing to be ashamed of. Sometimes letting the feels in is what your body needs, and craves it so, leading to the position you're in now. I find the best thing to do is just sit with it. Don't react in either positive or negative manners, just be with it. I've learned the most through inaction."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7161953 && dateTime=="03/15/18(Thu)09:17:19" && image=="DeV84WpeoI4.jpg") "Bump with comfy game fanart"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7161965 && dateTime=="03/15/18(Thu)10:07:52" && image=="27657702_1575642822531484_3866327145105851686_n.jpg") ">>7129927 thanks OP gonna send this to a girl who ghosted me"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7162927 && dateTime=="03/16/18(Fri)15:37:44" && image=="26239130_2024005984551405_6836305897032606292_n.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7163323 && dateTime=="03/16/18(Fri)23:27:26" && image=="1455.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7163433 && dateTime=="03/17/18(Sat)02:36:42" && image=="1517432858091.jpg") ">>7131953 Lifes a bitch than you die dont be a pussy and move on the thing that will kill her is when she finds out you've moved on and became a CONFIDENT motherfucker brofirst"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7163484 && dateTime=="03/17/18(Sat)05:47:04" && image=="1520256857189.png") ">>7163433 this bro. speaking from experience, this is what you need to do. And at some point you will need to become comfortable with being alone. Confronting yourself and learning to live with yourself may be very difficult, but if you can, you will come out the other side stronger and better. Here's some comfy for ya. Settle in, get a book or a videogame and take time to work on yourself. Don't let yourself be consumed by heartbreak, it'll eat you alive if you let it."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7163638 && dateTime=="03/17/18(Sat)09:25:11" && image=="qoiTj6Sqt9k.jpg") ">>7159900 maybe someone can offer some input on my situation? similar stories?"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164363 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)03:45:06" && image=="1374249809800.jpg") "In order to keep my job I need a Master's degree. The only thing left to finish is my thesis, and I've got two and a half months to do it. But I feel burned out. Need something to lift my spirits up and make me work hard for a short time, so I could calmly relax later. Gotta do it, just gotta do it for my parents. They supported me all through my studies, so I would like to return the favor."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164456 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)08:06:06") ">>7160772 This man speaks truth."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164478 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)08:58:17" && image=="1513319153625.jpg") ">>7137923 my condolences friend"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164489 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)09:39:18" && image=="The Nostalgia of the Infinite.jpg") ">>7159894 Not a pape but this is the inspiration behind it if you want more"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164512 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)09:55:36" && image=="324234.jpg") ">>7159900 Tell her how things are, have conversation where you decide an ultimatum. Offer your assistance in getting her life straight but tell her that you can't keep investing time and energy on something that isn't going anywhere. She can either accept your help and make progress or there is no reason for you to stick around. As for the love, it will come one day. The surprise and admiration of finding that person is what fuels the love into what makes it so special in the first place. >>7164363 Two months is a worthy investment towards yourself and your parents. Having the control in your own hands is a fortunate opportunity that not everyone gets, don't waste it mate >>7160894 I'm with you looking for those moments that will make it worth it. You will want to be around when it gets there and be glad you got through it all. If billions already found it, so will we. Find your strength in helping others using your experience, and in time you will find the right people doing so Everyone goes through the things we are describing here one way or another. Embrace the fact that you have the opportunity early in life to learn as much as you can from your problems. Find your way, and find strength in gaining the experience required to help others in similar situations down the road"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164536 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)11:08:01") ">>7146205 >muh chemical imbalance Refusing to take responsibility will NOT help you get better."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164539 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)11:13:25") ">>7138705 It's Hoson zeis, phainou medon holos su lupou Pros oligon esti to zen to helos ho chronos apaitei Epitaph of Seikilos As long as you live, be lighthearted Let nothing trouble you. Life is only too short, and time takes its toll."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164611 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)12:57:08" && image=="VIII_6.png") "OP here, I haven't left this thread yet. >>7160982 I hate being selfish, and I spend more time dealing with others' problems than my own. >>7161953 Hyper Light Drifter is awesome. Thank you. >>7161965 Out of spite? Making her feel guilty about it won't help. I got ghosted by a girl almost a year ago, she was one of my best friends. Still have no idea why she ghosted me, and it feels like shit. >>7129927 To everyone in the thread, I don't know how long this thread will last, but I cannot thank you enough. I love you."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164709 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)14:49:10") ">>7151512 t. One of those faggots who are always talking about suicide but never will do it"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164723 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)15:17:58" && image=="1504481061487.jpg") ">>7164611 oc for you op :] You can do this my friend."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7164742 && dateTime=="03/18/18(Sun)15:37:04") ">>7159938 Google image search, Juuni Taisen"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7165381 && dateTime=="03/19/18(Mon)06:04:13") ">>7150833 que bonito, what's this from? tried googling but no luck"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7165860 && dateTime=="03/19/18(Mon)17:57:31" && image=="1506416498750.jpg") ">>7129927 >>7131953 It's great that you can genuinely care about other person but clinging on desperately will get you nowhere but six feet under. Learn to love yourself before others and embrace the fact that failed romances can happen in a regular basis, I can tell for my experience. What comes to a suicide, I had thoughts like that for long time ever since my close relative died - by suicide. Later I understood what means to love yourself before others in healthy way. I hope that one day you will understand too anon, without losing someone dear first like I did."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7167938 && dateTime=="03/22/18(Thu)14:59:08") ">>7145541 not an expert but id say they transform the high voltage down to 110V or whatever those lights use. Because you can't have long distances with 110V, thats why they are high voltage in the first place"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7169564 && dateTime=="03/24/18(Sat)18:19:30") ">>7131953 Don't focus your life around chasing nuts."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7169570 && dateTime=="03/24/18(Sat)18:35:04") ">>7138632 >i got thrown in a psych ward last a week ago because i was about to kill myself how did it happen? last time I was at the psychiatrist I told him everything was ok he has no idea how often I think about suicide probably a lot of people think about it, but I wonder how much iis too much"; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7169624 && dateTime=="03/24/18(Sat)19:42:14") "Everyone's here getting depressed over women who they want a relationship with and I'm sitting here with literally 0 female acquaintances. I'm not sure if I'm doing better."; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7169781 && dateTime=="03/24/18(Sat)23:30:41" && image=="1505849551100.jpg") ""; if(Anonymous && title=="" && postNumber==7169804 && dateTime=="03/25/18(Sun)00:54:46" && image=="1513882143628.jpg") "Obsessing over a fat Jewish girl who's never gonna let me fuck. I'm way, way more attractive than her. I even have a few cute girls throwing themselves at me but I don't care. Hope the oneitis goes away soon. It's already been too long (2 months going on 3)."; } } class Navigation{ public void backToTop(); public void refresh(a); }